You drink, and background music becomes the soundtrack of your night. You speak, and those possible friends turn into positive enemies. You lust, and those friendly handshakes become accidental heartbreaks. You love, and your heart will never be yours again. You're honest, they'll judge you for being human. You're born, and it's a downhill ride toward death the whole time.

Every action has an opposing force on the other end. Rendering a reason to do anything at all, pointless.

                       If we live our lives by certain guidelines, I'm sure its so that people identify us as that. As that being who we are... Right? So we do and say things and don't do and don't say other things to keep things on an even scale in the big picture of "who we are". But if all your actions start getting mixed up. Your intentions misunderstood, You become this outcast to everyone. That person people warn others about. Yikes. What a thought. I think I'm there.

                      Lately it's all that's been on my mind. This deadly fear of being disliked by the one's (the few) that I actually like. A shattered image is hard to repair. I never judged people. I guess I'm naive? Or maybe I just don't care about people's personal time much. But everyone is just that to me... They're everyone. They're their own person and we all gotta do what we want, or what we have to, to get by. Maybe I never judged because I always figure "shit I've done, who am I to judge". Maybe its us with experience with good and bad that are better fit to judge people.

                      But once you've been there and done that, you realize judging is pretty stupid. It becomes a game sort of like a parent watching a child make the same mistakes he/she's made before. And watching them find the right way on their own. That's how I take in other peoples actions. Before you wale up and place bias judgement calls on people. Live a little. Be an asshole, be a nice person, do regretful shit, walk in their shoes. Because you might make that person re-think who they are, if people don't see them for who they're trying to be.

<3 Stay wise. Always think. Constantly smile. Fool them with nonchalance (:-p)